No.

Every single atom of my existence is screaming out for me to just give up now. On the surface it's just a little math homework. But that week's work of overdue assignments speaks of a week struggling to move, fighting just to breathe and not having enough energy left over to even put one foot in front of the other. It's just a little but of homework now, but it represents the never ending struggle to live. There will be more assignments on Monday, and on Tuesday, and Wednesday, and Thursday and it just keeps going and going and going and it never stops. I mean, yeah, this class is over at the end of July, but then fall classes start in August and I get to do it all over again, but with more than one class at a time. Sometimes I watch a really good episode and all I can think is "Damn, what I wouldn't give to have been on set for that" and it makes me want to keep going, or I see everyone's happy graduation photos and I think how amazing it would be to finally have a degree in something, anything. But usually, usually I'm just tired. Sure, if I can make it it will all be worth it, but when have I ever had any indication that success was possible for me? A possibility? Yeah. Possible? No. It just goes on and on and it never stops and I'm just tired. I'm tired of wanting and dreaming and hoping and I just want to stop now. I just want to stop.